SONG #1… not named yet… maybe i’ll call it #34 or something stupid like that. It’s got a bit of jack johnson, easy going feel to it:

Just driving down the freeway
Which way one way
Trying just to make it through another day
Taking the top down
Wind blowin downtown
Staring through the ceiling of the sky in the middle of July
But if I open up the glove box
Tickets have been lost
Floating through the air as I?m reaching going nowhere
Watching as I realize everything in my life
Is slippin and rippin and trippin and slippin? away

But if you hold me in your arms I will know just how to get home
Home where I can see the sun, I?ve never seen before
This dusty road to Shiloh just hidden round the bend
I pray my course will stay, won?t hydroplane, O can?t I keep on this path

CHORUS:
Could I have gone to sleep just moments before you spoke to me
And I wanted to take this to my grave, still giving it away to the emptiness I see
She?s running no where fast but still I?m chasing after her, swearing for a cure
Figure I?d just turn my back inclined to chart my way back home I hear it calling me

I keep telling all my lies as I?m tempted to compromise
How much longer can I keep up this disguise
Planting in their minds what I want them to see
I?m taking off my mask I?m going to put it bluntly.
My words seem to fall on deaf ears as I feared
You only want to listen to what you want to hear
Take it from, as I speak it very loosely,
I?m easy on the mic but my thoughts are severe.

But if you sit back and listen closely, you?ll hear what I?ve said
Spoken from a broken body, shackled up in fear
Trembling to let go of this familiar atmosphere
I?ve dug myself a hole, I think I?ll stay here for just another year.

BRIDGE
Taking hold of my tears as I walk away
Could I have said it any better than that
Easy pickings now I?m slave to traffic light
As I stare through this dirty window

I know it’s been quite a while since my last blog entry. Oh well. I have recently been updating my song catalog by writing a little more. I’ve been trying to tap into past experiences and they’re total effect on me as a human, developing my character and personality. Here’s the first of one of those songs:

Every breath I take reminds me how she used to be in everything
Everything I was, contemplating done
But it’s been three years I haven’t been the one to talk about it
Hide it away, saving pennies for a rainy day
I still hear the footsteps echoing between my ears
Between my ears, how much longer will this take
Cause I’ve got places to go, and I’ve got people to meet without her
Without her, I’ve learned from my mistakes

CHORUS:
But if I should fall asleep will she still be in my dreams
Has she found the road that leads there, found the key that tell me
And if I should fall apart will she understand this pain
Has she cried out for your name, please send your rain

I’m taking my time, moving slow, she asks what happened to
The boy I know, nothing’s nothing old, nothing remains,
There’s scarcely any shadow of the picture I had painted her
Maybe we’ve been torn in two but…

Upon the arrival of the girlfriend’s birthday and our anniversary, I found it rather difficult to pen out a “love song.” It has always been easier for me to write a song about a girl than to write a song for a girl. I know josh doody has talked about this before, but I am in total consensus. It was a terribly humbling experience after I penned out the words below and read them back, unsatisfied with the expression of love on paper. Maybe I should stick to prose and leave the music out of these metaphorical “love letters.” As a disclaimer, I think she still appreciated the effort and likes the song because it is “hers.”

I want you to know just how very far I’ve come
I want you to know how many walls have crumbled and fallen away
Away to the shoreline to stay, never returning to
this new boy whose fallen for you, fallen for you.
Captured in this still photograph I see this magic memory
Of times where we touched, caress of a brow
Everything claims those times are now.

May had brought me to you, and autumn we harvested June
I’ll lay you down on reds and greens, the little soft pillows of affectionate things.
Whisper to you, secrets I hide, blushing red circles that frame both your eyes
I haven’t concern, I haven’t a care, everything’s better when knowing you’re there.
There with me always to love.

Everyday is another one, a new chance to find a new way
To say the plethora of things you should know, though you still deny
Each sensual whisper I’ve spoken in truth to you
I wish you could know, I wish you can see you, the way that I see you
Flowers will grow, birds will sing, clothed and loved by the one creating
But in the end flowers will fall, but chosen are we to last after all.

I finished a song last night.  Here are the lyrics, give me some time to breathe them in and I will probably explain a little more about it:

Breaking up this cobblestone was easier than sunsets watching over me
Having known that everything was never going to ever be the same
Watching, waiting, turning corners, seeing wolves in their wool they secretly wait
Until the moment that comes too often, the time when I will turn my back to all that made me

Bringing into clear light this man I can?t be
Taking hold my plastic faith uneasy
Looking at this bread taking it alone
I just can?t live without knowing.

What would you have me tell them?
That everything that frees me now comes from you alone
What would you take me to?
I haven?t got a single breath without you now without you now.

Having taken nothing for granted
Grabbing hold of the rope that I?m swinging from
Hearing bells they clamour all around me
This sweet stillness holds me here

Looking into clear eyes the heavens open
Seeing to this lamb whose death has purchased
Nothing left protruding soul that wavers
Leaving me down on my knees

Taking notes I jot this down, drawing circles leading me to utter despair
I haven?t got a single moment when I have felt all alone without a hand to hold
Blocking my eyes from the light, I can?t see the sun but with it now I see the world around
Like a child, I think anew, and gaze in awe with wonder now I found you now.